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Well I’ve been tagged by Brownie this tag forr quite a while but now I think it goes perfectly with the time being almost at the end of Ramadan and all. And actually I needed to post a similar post because I’ve come to realize a lot of blessings that I took for granted. So here’s my list.

1- Well the first thing that comes to my mind since they are hurting already are ” My Legs ” – yes my legs. I had a problem with my foot for quite a while that almost even prevented me from driving at some points and I couldn’t definitely take any of my walks. So now I know I’ve been taking them for more than granted and I hope they come to their normal state ba2a : ) : Really grateful.

2- My Mom – I simply don’t know how I could’ve lived without her. – My word would be : Protection

3- My Grandpa- I’m happy that I had a person like that in my life. He’s just wonderful, I just wish I had more time with him. My word would be: Educated

4- My Best Friend – She’s amazing. She knows exactly how I think and what I like. She’s very considerate and smart. She does more than listening as she has to bear with me with the me-before-talking phase, almost every time, which – and take it from me- is very hard. She gives me loads of advice. My word: Sharing.

5- My friends – You would think it’s the same point – but no I had to dedicate a specific point to my best friend she really deserves it πŸ˜› But what I mean here are not the close ones. Recently it happened that I’ve been really down and what really got me out of it was just a simple chit chat with one who I consider a dear friend. Sometimes you just need someone to talk to without explaining all the hassle or them wanting to know all the hassle. They would just comfort you and give you advice. My word: Friendship.

6- My Education- I feel blessed because of my education that I believe gave me the opportunity to understand more and appreciate more and take more differences in and accept them, it helped me to be the person I am. My word: education.

7- My community and work environment – I’m blessed for having a community where I don’t feel alienated or cornered and helped me let all what’s on my mind out or at least I can do that whenever I want. My work environment is also a very open one with loads of differences but what’s good is that it all dissolves in it with no discrimination what so ever. My word: equality.

8- My car- I just thank God that it bears with me with all the atrocious things I do to her. My word: Thankful

9-My childhood and teenage years – although they weren’t the perfect ones, but they made me who I am, they made me stronger and gave me the chance to understand more about people and life. They also saved me the hassle of going through the silly teenage problems I’ve always heard about. My word: Experience

10- And last but not least I’m blessed with God and for my faith in Him and for His mercy and my belief in it. My word: Mercy.

Well writing this post made me remember a thousand things I can be thankful for. So as a conclusion I can say I feel blessed for being who I am and for all what I have and what I don’t have, what I am and what I’m not, what I’m gaining and what I’ve already lost. I’m really thankful for everything. πŸ™‚

Thanks for the tag and since I’m already terribly late and everybody I can think of has already received this tag I’m tagging everybody who’ve come across this. Even if you don’t have a blog, just write them down, they are worth it.
And for the rules, well, go for the very inspiring post of ibhog who started it all :))

Enjoy the few left days of Ramadan
and Have a veryy Happy Eiiiiiiiid isA πŸ™‚

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I’m surprised at myself sometimes. I really feel like I’m two ppl or even more. I don’t really forget, especially the harm that ppl do. But ain’t this the case with almost everyone. I don’t forget ppl who have been good to me and ppl who are caring or considerate or respectable because I so much believe they are a few and you should feel lucky you met them because they are the gems in your life that you should really treasure. And although I don’t forget those who harmed me nor the harm they did but I rarely keep grudges and deep down I don’t really seek revenge or even think it’s a good idea. But what really surprises me is when I find myself keeping an old grudge and not letting go of it despite the years and despite everything I’m going through. I thought maybe I’m keeping grudges to those who caused me a permanent harm or damage, but I don’t find this is the case. I have forgiven ppl who have done me permanent damage before, or at least I’m not keeping a grudge for them, and I still think that if they haven’t been that way I might have been in a better place right now. But there are just these ppl who I really can’t forget what they did and I can’t really forgive them and I feel I’m keeping a grudge for them despite all those years. How can I still feel this way after almost 7 years? Why haven’t I forgotten yet?! To me it’s just a mystery. I really do forget easily and I believe everything starts small except for anger it starts big and diminishes with the power of time, and this is what’s surprising me. I always believed time was so powerful that it even makes you forget that you loved someone that much, it heals wounds and it even helps you get over a harsh break up, it makes you let go and it can even make you someone else. But is there really some things that are so powerful, so powerful they can defy the power of time. And if there are such things how can we deal with them then if it’s only with such a blessing such as time, that we forget our wounds and misery. Do we live imprisoned in our memories even if we want to forget them, even if we pretend we did get over them. Even if we want to live the illusion that everything is just as normal as anything. I have great faith in God, I know he gave us the gift of forgetting and I know maybe there are other blessings I just haven’t discovered yet.

On another note: Happy Ramadan everyone. : )))